Loving this book: Trusting the Gold – Uncovering your natural goodness

Although it speaks of Buddha in this book but a lot written inside resonates.

The 1 page that made me want to do this blog is page 121 and 122 (omg just realized it’s 121. I also want to talk about this number 21 that makes me think of something I’ll share later)

It reminded me of a message I received from God recently

( you can go to www.alldevotion.com to get your message for the day too! Mine is quite special. Since many years ago, this www.alldevotion.com will send messages to my email as and when. it could be months or weeks or days apart unexpectedly and the messages are always very apt and timely so it really feels like God dropping messages for me from there Thank You Daddy God. )

God is really asking me relax at this period which I am thankful. You know I wake up everyday excited for the day ahead. Last night I had a little spiral thinking omg my life is not what I expected it to be. Then when I woke up today like a little kid making all those little kid noises again excited for the new day again, and during meditation there was this verse: Suddenly a great company of the Heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying, ‘ Glory to God in the highest Heaven, and on earth peace on those on whom His favor rests.’ Luke 2:13-14 NIV

I was so elated to finally know why I am so filled with joy and peace despite the outside circumstances it is because I have God’s favor!!!

Thankful that most of the time now I’m truly living in the present.

Before reading this book today I had that thought of where is that Tracy that used to 走路有风。And since years ago I keep hearing God asking me to be humble. My prideful days are gone hopefully. Because whenever I feel my pride coming up now even I am afraid coz I feel like God will somehow do something to humble me when I get proud. I miss being super confident though. Because when I used to be good at my job I used to be very confident. When I’m alone not talking I still feel very confident but once I’m with others I can feel a dip especially when I need to explain my life to others because my life now is not exactly the most ideal situation to the public.

And why can I be so confident when I’m alone it’s because when I’m alone, I usually don’t think of everything or anything else. I just am present with whatever I’m doing or whoever I’m with. When there is no need to explain my life, no need to explain how I’m doing, my life is great as a human just like most people, just the fact of being healthy, having enough money to use, having food to eat, having a house to live in, having no pain, being well able, having things and work to do is already a super great life to be in. But the societal expectations of great is.. you know what I mean.

So I just want you to remind you to let go of striving too. And relax.

I seriously have done many years of striving and proving. I have worked so hard till the state of I always always ask myself when eating, if I’m just working to eat, do I really need to work so hard? Yesterday I was led to watch Forrest Gump and Forrest mentioned something like, my mama said as humans we only need a certain amount of money, the rest is to show off.

We have been wired to get married, have kids, have dogs and cats with kids, live in big nice home, drive good branded car, travel, sit business class, sit first class, sit suites, travel more, buy branded, eat good food, have great social life, be at beautiful places, dress beautifully, have awards = successful.

Through Heart to Art workshops, books, social media etc, I realized and learnt that to have peace, joy, good health, time freedom and financial freedom ( having more than enough to spend and use. you don’t have to be a millionaire or billionaire to feel financially free. if you trust that God will truly take care of you and always provide more than enough for you, there is no need to worry at all. but of coz spend within your means too with wisdom ) is when you are truly wealthy and successful inside out.

Only when we fully let go, God can take over.

I won’t lie to say I’m 100% in let go mood all the time as I’m still human and will still wonder things here and there now and then but just release and be present as I am and not care about the world or what they world think or expect, I truly am living a great life like you are when you ignore the rest of the world and their expectations!

We are all worthy as we are. And when you truly claim and believe that, there is no need to prove anything to anyone anymore.

Talking about 21, to me, 21 feels like coming home to myself. No matter how far we go, life brings us back inward.

What do we truly want, who are we truly? A lot of things people do and show on social media is to share their life, and many to show off. If you didn’t have to prove yourself to others. Who will you be? What will you do? And what if you don’t need to think about it at all.

What I’m learning in this season is this:

When I stop striving, I don’t become less. I become more myself.

Hope this helps.

God Bless.

Love,

Tracy Immanuel